Why so Emo?

First of all, let me clarify MY* definition of emo-ness.
*Disclaimer: I am not claiming that this is THE CORRECT definition, as I am merely ranting the randomness that is in my head. BUT in my defense, they do come from some observations la, which I perceive to be correct otherwise I wouldn't describe it as such! Makes sense, rite?!!

"Being emo is being somewhat moody, withdrawn, and unsocialising at that moment. The emo-ing person could possibly have been affected by a certain situation that has brought him or her to his/her particular state of emo-ness. This person is very likely in deep thought and possibly sulking. The person suffering from emo-ness is very often accompanied by a sour face."

"When coming in contact with an emo-ing person, you must be cautious. Unless you have a listening ear and the patience of a milking cow (or a cow with milk. But what I'm actually thinking about is a cow being milked. I wonder if there is a proper term for that? Whatever it is, you know you'll definitely need buckets load of patience! Heh.), then avoid eye-contact and flee for your life!" - an un-politically correct definition of emo-ness by dohnie tan.

Joh, why la liddat? (Translation: Why are you behaving this way?) I'm taking a theological subject this term, and in the first week alone, we have had 16 hours of the stuff! Non-stop, man! The good thing about the class is that it really gets you thinking. The not so good part: lack of sleep. Not because you're pondering issues late into the night tho, but because the class starts so early! Haha! Zzz... This week, we have been discussing the church and some peculiar behaviours of her members. Why do Christians behave in a particular manner? Here's an example, if Christians are supposed to be socially inclusive, friendly and accepting to all, then why are there cliques still happening? On top of that, why is it happening in BCM? It shouldn't be here, right? But maybe I see it as a problem only because I feel like the left-out one. *Hyuk!* But how would they like it if this were to happen in their church??!!! I wonder if I'm guilty of it happening in my own church? *Gulp!* Oh oh!

LL calls them 'the Inner Circle'. He has a point, but I don't think it's that bad la *hope*. I'm honestly just concerned. It's not the best of behaviours. I dunno la. In class, Pastor Lim said that as ministers we should not be afraid to rebuke and correct when necessary... but I'm not their pastor, am I?

"... then Cain replied indignantly to God, 'Am I my brother's keeper?!!'"

*Gulp* I guess if it gets worse, then I should do something about it. Some of the things that have happened really affected me. It's not the best of behaviours...

I don't think I'm emo-ing la... probably just tired. Must be the lack of sleep.

Grateful

Yesterday, I posted about how we as Christians can avoid falling and getting and/or causing hurt. But today I realised that I left one more thing out: friends.

We expect our church leaders to pray for us, but we rarely pray for them back. *raised hands* I'm guilty of that too. But you know, if it ever becomes my turn to be a church leader, I would really really appreciate it if people were to pray for me. The prayer covering of other people / corporate church is important too, and I'm very grateful for those who do remember me in their prayers. You really kinda feel something like being loved! Heh!

I learned that today in a most interesting and dramatic way! (Drama not because of what was going on, but rather because of what was going through my head! In reality though, my little life-lesson occured while I was simply seated down at a quiet little mamak store sipping my horlicks panas). Interesting because of the way I had to learn it, but it's a long story I'll refrain from sharing here.

I learned that people do care for me, they pray for me, and they love me. *beam* Thank you, God for these friends. They are a tremendous blessing to me in my ministry. I really appreciate it. I really appreciate them. Thank you, God for these brother and sisters.

You know who you are. Thank you! God bless you loads!

Warning!

This post is long! But it sort of makes up for the long silence, so... here we go!
My new term here at BCM has just begun. I wasn't even done with the previous one.
I found out that I'm the new dorm monitor. *groan* A glorified adult babysitter?

(Okay, attempt to rhyme fails BIG time!) I hadn't even planned to rhyme ler. Stop stop!

Our term break was 3 weeks long this time. An improvement from the last one where I only got 1 week! It wasn't everybody though, it was just me... long story. Short post. Maybe another time?

Anyway, so I'm entering into the new term with a different course programme. What it means is basically this: while other students are doing a research paper of 10 - 12 pages, I'll have to do 20 -25. While they read 1 text book, I'll be reading 4! AND THAT'S NOT THE END OF IT!!! *cries shamelessly* Oh what on earth have I gotten myself into??!!! Goodbye social life! Goodbye games! Goodbye... blog? No chance. Would you believe that one of my subject's requirements is that I start and maintain a blog? Pretty cool, right?! Okla, at least so far I'm enjoying my classes. Here's a fact: I enjoy studying, but dislike proving that I have (ie. assignments). Haha! By the way, here's the link to my other blog! I haven't posted anything up yet, but I'm supposed to fill it with theological issues. *OOOoooOoOoo...* My Mega-concern though, is posting up something really dumb that proves to be almost heretical! Haha! Not funny.

Speaking of things heretical, I suppose everyone would have heard by now about Pastor Mike Guglielmucci who admitted to not having cancer, after faking it for 2 years! ok fine, so it's not related to anything heretical. In the latest update on his case, it was even revealed in the Australian papers that he's a porn addict! Now, although I don't condone his addiction, I'm like thinking, "wHAT oN eARtH?!! What's that gotta do with his Medical report?" Suddenly everything about him is being dug out. *Sigh* The wolves are merciless. How sad it is for the wandering sheep who loses his way.

I think this serves as a terrible reminder, a warning that we must hold to a good testimony. As a minister in training, I am saddened, but more than that, I am terrified. Here was a hugely popular minister who has written inspired songs and ministered to countless lives. Yet his fame only contributed to the impact of his fall. So many people tell of their hurt and anger. I'm no where as famous, but what's to stop me from falling and causing tremendous hurt? What's to stop me from disgracing the name of God? I guess there can only be one solution: God. More specifically, a healthy relationship with God, one that is honest and faithful, consistently coming to Him in worship and reading His word. "Read your bible, Pray everyday" may sound clichéd, but the fact is that it is the TRUTH, by golly, and I will say it again, "READ YOUR BIBLE AND PRAY EVERYDAY!"

Secondly, I'm also terrified for the young people. I'm scared for the youths in my church, more so for those who have left (for obvious reasons). What's to keep them from falling? What's to keep them from hurting?

You know when some things are really important and you want to just keep repeating them?

Read.Your.Bible.AND.Pray.Everyday.

See what 1 Peter 5:8 says, "Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour." Don't think that if you're not some bigshot Christian, you're nobody and so the devil will leave you alone. That's a lie! God loves you and hurts very much if you hurt. That's enough motivation for the devil to want to get you!

Be safe. God loves you. Read your Bible. Pray everyday.

Wadayaknow!!! I DO have loads of assignments!!! *help!*

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So it's kinda like that with me now la...

Either that or I'm too lazy to blog... *blech!*

I prefer option #1. Hee.